Wednesday, September 30, 2015

ONE month

So I'm a week late on writing Hudson's one month update. I cannot believe how fast these last 5 weeks have flown by. A part of me feels really sad and another part of me is so proud of all three of us for making it through! I always worry that I am not soaking up every second that I possibly can but really these last few weeks have been such a great time to spend as a family of three. There have been plenty of laughs, plenty of tears and definitely a lot of yawning happening around these parts. 
Here are a few moments and highlights that I was to always remember…

The way you love to snuggle your mama right under my chin so that my face is touching yours.

The way you reach behind you to find my hand to hold while you eat.

How much you love your carseat anytime we have to put you in it. Not a peep is made, just sleeping is had.

When we took you to chalk the block in provo and you did so good! Until we had the misfortune of you pooping through your diaper and clothes and mommy trying to feed you under a far too small cover and dropping her boob pad on the floor of a restaurant and then forgetting to pick it up….someone had the misfortune of finding that later on. This day was either laugh or cry and oh man did your dad and I laugh at all of this! We changed you in the back of the jeep and fed you in the car and you were so good through it all.

How you LOVE to be wrapped tight to me and go for walks.

How bossy you are! When you need to eat you need it right now!

You love music!! Rocking out to Andy Grammer with Daddy is your favourite and listening to mommy sing you Taylor Swift is the best! 

You went from absolutely hating bath time to loving it so much! 

All the many grunts and growls and coos that you make! You are the noisiest baby I have ever met and there are SO many times that your daddy and I have laughed so hard at the noises you make. You are our little growly monster!

You are growing and growing and my little mama heart almost can't handle it…but I am so looking forward to continuing to watch you grow baby boy! Every long night and happy eventful day is worth every second! Our sweet little Hudson boy, you are so loved.

Monday, September 28, 2015

Breastfeeding tips and tricks.

Breastfeeding cover c /o: covered goods

Before we even thought about getting pregnant when I thought about breastfeeding I just wasn't sure it was something that I wanted to do. Now before you start throwing stones at me let me explain. I had witnessed a lot of negative experiences when it came to breastfeeding and it actually just frightened me. I am terrified of failure and I didn't want to try and have it not work out. Now do not get me wrong. You are NOT a failure if you cannot breastfeed your little ones but for me I just know I can be really hard on myself when things don't work out the way I plan for them to. 

Once I found out I was pregnant I did SO much thinking about how I was going to care for this baby. I still felt uncomfortable with breastfeeding but I was determined to educate myself as best I could so that I could make the best decision for me and for my baby.

I decided to go to a local lactation consults breastfeeding class. This is THE best decision I made when it came to this topic. I left that class feeling so positive and confident that I WANTED to breastfeed and that that would be the best choice for us. I also decided to go into it open minded. If breastfeeding went well then great, if it didn't go well and it was effecting baby and I negatively then that was ok and we would figure it out. I think the best advice that I walked away with from that class was to not give up before 6 weeks because breastfeeding is not fully established until then. I am so glad that she told us that because even though I have been so lucky to have Hudson be such a good eater right from day one, we have had a few hiccups that made me worried. However, because I went to that class I had a long list of things to try and help our hiccups settle down. When those didn't seem to work completely I also knew where to go. Straight to Lindsey the lactation consultant for the help we needed.

The bond that has been created between Hudson and I through breastfeeding is so sweet and even though some days I feel like that is ALL we do, I realize that this is so good for him and also good for me. 

Whichever way you decide to feed your little one I know it will be what is best for the both of you BUT when it comes to breastfeeding here are a few tips I learned and have been so helpful to me!

1. DO NOT give up before 6 weeks. Like I said before, this advice helped me so much. In the first few weeks this advice can really keep you going if you have a hard day here and there.

2. Have someone you can talk to who will encourage you to keep going. I do not know what I would have done without  my sister in law helping me feel positive and confident that I could keep trying when it got tough. We are talking late night chats full of tips and advice and also…total TMI pics of what was happening over here… I mean that helped keep me sane SO many times.

3. It is NOT supposed to hurt. I feel like that was the one serious misconception I had before I went to this class. Just expecting it to hurt. But it is not supposed to be painful. If it is then something is not right. 

These are just a few tips that helped me along the way so far!

As for things you won't know until you start breastfeeding…

1. If you thought you were hungry and thirsty while you were pregnant… holy smokes you will be double that once you start feeding your babe. Like I am talking parched and just snacking all the day long haha So get a huge water bottle and stock your fridge and pantry with yummy healthy snacks to just have on hand always.

2. Now… we all know we are furnaces while we are pregnant. SO hot all the time. I kept thinking how nice it would be to not feel so hot all of time after having baby. Well, making milk burns calories which also makes you SO hot. I have woken up in the night when Hudson has gone a longer than usual amount of time in between feeds and I was soaked in sweat. So not much you can do but just be prepared for that!!

3. A GOOD breastfeeding cover will be a must have. Covered Goods is the best of the best. Full/ complete coverage and also they are cute and multi functional! You can also us it as a carseat cover and later on as a cover for shopping carts. One time I forgot mine when we went out and used a different one and…it was a horrible experience that may have ended up in a nip slip or two…no one wants that…trust me!

Now if you are expecting and you live in the Utah county area and are looking for a consultant or to attend a breastfeeding class I highly recommend Lindsey's classes. If you do not live close enough she also offers online courses and helpful videos on her website HERE.

Good luck Mamas! 

Thursday, September 24, 2015

Birth Story Part 2.

I am writing this as Hudson sleeps beside me. I love to hear his soft breathing in and out mixed with little grunts here and there. Oh little boy you have my heart.
It is so hard to believe that only four weeks ago he took his very first breath.

Anyways, where did we leave off….

… We took the long walk down the hallway and into the operating room. It all felt so surreal. Was this really happening? Were we really about to meet our son? I felt like I could hardly breathe and all I can really remember is Kevin telling me that I could do this and to just keep looking at him. 
Everyone in the room was so kind and caring as they prepped me and got me ready to welcome our baby into our arms. 

I had no idea what to expect over the next hour and once I had gotten my spinal tap I knew it was going to be different than I had even tried to imagine. I could not move or feel anything from my chest down. It was the most bizarre feeling ever. I laid on the operating table and glanced over Kevin's shoulder and saw a mirror with my reflection in it… I told Kev that that mirror was making me feel super uncomfortable and then before I knew it they had put the tarp up and the mirror was covered. Phew thank goodness. I felt so relieved. That is until I looked up for one split second only to see my reflection in the overhead light. I saw them cutting me open and then all the sudden I was sent into a straight panic attack. I remember thinking "I cannot do this, I cannot do this!!!" Tears started falling down my cheeks and then I heard Kevin say "Just look at me, don't look anywhere else, just look at me." At that same moment our anesthesiologist told me to just breathe and that she was going to give me something to calm me down. Instantly I felt calm and confident that everything was going to be ok.

Then we heard our Doctor say "Okay we are going to have a baby here in the next minute." My heart skipped a beat as I felt so much pressure and a huge tug on my stomach. Then Hudson took his first breath and we heard a deep little cry. He was here! Our baby boy was finally here! 

The nurses quickly cleaned him off and checked him as needed. He was right beside us the entire time and I could see his perfect little body squirm and hear his louder and louder cries. Oh how I wanted to hold my baby. Before I knew it he was all wrapped up and they handed him to Kevin and he brought him over to me. I will never forget what happened next. 

Hudson was crying and crying and it was hurting my poor mama heart. As soon as Kevin put him up to my face, I gave him a quick kiss, Kevin and I started talking and he instantly stopped crying. He knew us! And it was so apparent that we already knew him. Our little family of three was finally together and nothing else mattered. 

They took us all back to recovery where I finally got to hold my sweet little boy. He was placed on my chest where I finally felt completely reunited with this baby of mine. As he lay on my skin I realized how special this moment was and that even though it didn't all go as planned that this moment was never going to be taken away from me. He was safe and he was in my loving arms.

Welcome to the world Hudson Cooper Hiatt we adore you more than words can say and I will never forget the day that I finally met you baby boy. You are so loved. 

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Birth Story Part 1.

Nearly one month ago we welcomed our sweet little Hudson into our lives. His birth story is something so near and dear to my heart that it has been very hard and emotional to attempt to write. At first I wasn't sure I wanted to share the story here or just keep it to myself. However I remember that ultimately this blog is about us and our lives and so how could I not write it down here where I so often have poured out my heart!

So lets start with how baby H had decided to make his appearance a little bit differently than we had originally planned. If you had seen all of our ultrasound pictures you would see a head down baby in almost all. So in my mind I never even thought about planning for anything other than a natural birth. I had planned and planned and prepared as much as I thought possible only to find out that 3 weeks before his due date he had moved into breech position. My heart instantly broke and the tears fell for days. I had my heart set on this experience with me, my husband and our son and it felt like that was just being ripped away from me. 

The weeks that followed were full of trying everything we could to get Mr. H to move around again. Every old wives tale in the book I tell you….but nothing happened. We had our last appointment with our Doctor hoping by some miracle we would have the outcome I so badly wanted. Yet, baby was stuck and not about to move out of his cozy position. So we went ahead and scheduled for a C-Section one week later. 

The next 7 days dragged on and on and on and then all of the sudden it was the night before and I was freaking out. I was SO nervous for what was to come. I had never had surgery or spent much time in a hospital before and I had no idea what to expect. But this was happening whether I wanted it to or not so all I could do was double check my hospital list and try to get some sleep. Seriously though…who can sleep the night before they KNOW their little baby is coming. It's basically Christmas Eve times a million. Impossible. 

We had set an alarm for 6:30 AM since we needed to be at the hospital by 7. I laid there in bed awake most of the night just waiting for that alarm to go off. When it finally did I bolted out of bed, brushed my teeth, grabbed my bag, kissed my hubby, cried while he held me and then took a deep breath and we were out the door. 

I started noticing that I was having pretty consistent and painful contractions while we were on our way to the hospital but just assumed they were my usual braxton hicks. When we got to the hospital and they hooked me up to the monitors the nurse asked me if I was feeling the contractions that were showing up on the screen. I said yes but that I was okay and she just gave me a weird look and left the room. haha. I wouldn't realize it until the anesthesiologist came in and said "oh it looks like you're in labour!" haha I guess baby H was coming August 26th either way! It was just meant to be his birthday! 

After about an hour on the monitor and making sure baby was still breech our nurse came in and got Kev all decked out in doctor gear and we began our walk down the hallway to where our lives would be changed forever…

…to be continued….

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Hudson Boy

August 26th at 9:20 in the morning we welcomed our sweet little boy into the world.
Love does not even begin to describe the feelings we have for this little one. I cannot wait to write up his birth story. Even though it wasn't the way we had planned it was nothing short of special and so amazing. We love you baby boy!

Hudson Cooper Hiatt

7 pounds 10 ounces
19 inches long
Chubby cheeks, long fingers and toes, luscious lips, the cutest button nose, long light hair, and extra snuggly always!

My heart is melting just writing this out and looking at this picture from the Hospital because he has already changed so much! ah! 

Thanks for joining in on our adventures through pregnancy….now let's continue this journey through mommy hood!