Monday, May 18, 2015

15-25 Weeks

This second trimester has flown by so quickly! Now we are headed into the third trimester pretty soon and I can hardly believe it! We have a pretty busy summer coming up ahead of us and I think these next 14 weeks are going to go by in the blink of an eye. I've started making all the to do lists to get done before baby arrives! It's kind of crazy! There is SO much to do! But for now lets focus on what the second trimester brought...

Weight Gain: 13 pounds total. I keep thinking I'll have gained more when I go to my appointments but the numbers still aren't going up very much. At first I was worried but my Doctor keeps reminding me that the baby is growing and is very healthy and it is A-Okay because everyone gains different amounts of weight.

Cravings: I still basically want cereal and pb&j's all the time haha. But recently I want peaches. The smell and taste are just so good right now!! I guess I have always loved fruit so it's not a weird craving or anything. But dang they are a million times better than I ever remember! Other than that I just want fruit all day every day.

Food Aversions: I still seriously hate tomatoes and lettuce….which is just really sad. And none of the veggies I typically love taste good to me. Ugh. But I still keep trying to eat them and get some goodness in my belly and to baby. I feel like I am already fighting with this kid to eat healthy! At least it's just veggies I struggle with and not EVERYTHING healthy.  I would starve.
Also, no pizza for this mama. Which is okay because I never really loved pizza anyways but man it makes me sick!

Symptoms: Hello heartburn! I feel like the heartburn situation is slowly getting worse. Maybe that means baby H is growing some hair in there? Hopefully! Other than that just aches and pains. My left hip is really giving me troubles and making it hard to sleep…or harder to sleep. If you are pregnant and haven't had a prenatal massage…GO NOW! That is the most relaxed I have felt in a long time and I have never slept better. I could get one every dang day!

Movement: This baby is a wild one! I know I have said that before but for some reason it still amazes me every time is kicks or wiggles around at all! In the past couple of weeks I have also been able to see my belly move when he moves. It's hilarious and also kind of weird!! But it is so much fun to be able to have other people feel and see a glimpse of what is going on in there! The most fun part of it is having Kev put is hand on my stomach and with every movement say "Whoa! That was a big one!" or "Good job buddy!" When he first saw my tummy move his face was so priceless!

What a miracle it is to watch and feel baby H grow! I love this little dude oh so much already and can not wait for the rest of the weeks to fly by! But for now I am soaking up every moment I have left just the two of us! It is already so much fun to be his Mom!


Thursday, May 14, 2015

Live Free

Well, in true Lo fashion, I took about zero pictures on my two week trip home to Canada. Okay I took a ton of pictures of my new niece and of my nephew but those are all for me! All the moments spent at home after 365 days were waaaay more memory worthy than picture worthy anyways. I spent a lot of time in my pi's with no make up on just loving up on those sweet little babes! I got to do what I would normally do if I was still living there. Late night chats with my sis, so many cuddles from the cutest kiddos, long walks with my mom, devouring delicious food, deep convos with my daddio and catching up with old friends. It was perfection.

Now about this shirt. First of all its awesome. It's comfortable, it's cute, and it adds a nice pop of colour to my wardrobe! Plus it fits this little growing bump! Score! But I also love the message it has. While I was home in Canada I also had a lot of time to reflect on life and to also think forward to the future. I think my entire life I was trying to break free and really LIVE FREE. Free from pressure to be perfect, free from the typical, free from fear. I have this free bird kind of spirit which you have all been able to see over the years! I like to go and do and travel and just be free! I so badly want to raise this little boy of ours to know that he can do the same! That he can be whatever he wants to be. He can be whomever he is. I want to teach him to live free of fear and to just go for it! Go for the life he wants! After all…living the LIVE FREE motto myself brought me here to Utah, brought me to his daddy and ultimately brought me him!

So LIVE FREE! Go live your dreams! Don't be afraid of not being perfect or of failing. Live Free of all those worries! And if you need a little push in the right direction…buy this shirt as a little reminder!


Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Motherhood in the Making

Some days I am completely caught off guard with fact that we will be welcoming our sweet boy in to our arms in just four short months. The time seems to be flying by and I can feel him growing more and more each day. Sometimes I feel like he so much already has a personality all his own and when I meet him face to face for the very first time I will already know him. I would be lying if I wasn't a bit terrified that in just a few short months this pregnancy will be over and I will officially be his mother and his life source but in a different way. It could really sloooooow down because I think I will miss being pregnant with my little guy. And some days I am just not fully prepared for what being a Mom fully entails. I worry I won't be enough and that my patience just won't be where it needs to be.

Other days I cannot wait for these four months to be over. For him to be in my arms and to be able to kiss his sweet soft face. Being pregnant is hard in a lot of ways. Hard on your body and definitely hard on your emotions. Once he is here I won't worry if he is doing okay in there or if these braxton hicks are anything more than that. Or worry if I am gaining enough weight or if I am doing everything just right for him to have a healthy home inside of me. Mostly though I just can't wait to be holding him and  have him be such a huge part of our little family.

I imagine that once he is here life will still be a lot like this.

Some days I will be wishing the days away until he sleeps through the night or will eat on his own. Some days I am positive I will even look around at an unkept house, a crying baby and a wardrobe full of clothes that just don't fit quite right anymore and think…. "What was I thinking?!?" 

But then I will hold that sweet crying boy in my arms and he will smile at me and I will realize that that is what it is all about. That the dishes don't so much matter, that my jiggly tummy is a reminder that once he was right there inside of me and that maybe I will hold that crying baby just a little bit longer because one day he won't want me to.

And this will be the forever roller coaster of Motherhood.

Becoming a mom has always been my most sought after goal in this life. The greatest gift my Heavenly Father has ever given me is our sweet baby H. The greatest of all the gifts my amazing selfless and wonderful husband will ever give me is the gift of becoming a Mother. 

I want to remember on the hard days that I am so blessed. I am the luckiest. I get to be a Mom. There is no greater gift in this life.

Happy Mother's Day this coming weekend to all you women out there.