Friday, January 11, 2013

Stuck


I've been sitting here trying to figure out how exactly to start this post. Seems there is no good way. So here it is.
I always want to come on here and write about something funny, something uplifting, something to leave you just a little bit happier than when you started your day. 
Yet, as you know, this blog is more of a take me as I am. And more often than not these days I'm confused, lonely, frustrated and mostly feeling stuck. 
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I'm not really one for being stuck. If something isn't working out or doesn't feel right I am the first one to bail. I have a free spirit and a serious gypsy soul to thank for that. Maybe that's why it's been so hard for me lately...being stuck is the worst. Trust me I am yelling it at myself just as much as you are all yelling at your computer screen to just stop complaining and get a move on. But stuck is hard to get out of sometimes.

There are somethings that I can change and I will...like my body being stuck in a place I don't want to live, working a job I don't want to work. That will come with time...sooner the better.

BUT...

...My mind is stuck, stuck trying to figure out what I really want in this messy life of mine. Where exactly do I want to be. What exactly do I want to be doing...

...My heart is stuck, stuck wanting the same thing I've wanted for the last four years. Four years is a long time to want..want is the wrong word maybe...ache..Four years is a long time to ache for something. Ache for the impossible. 

Maybe one day it will all be possible.

But for now...my lovely lovely readers whom I just adore... stick it out with me ok?
I won't be here as often as I would like to be. Mostly because I'm going to be focusing on figuring all of this stuff out. I will however keep you updated when things take a turn for the more adventurous side...and I will as always include you on this journey. So I'll be around. 

If you so wish.. keeping up with me on TWITTER & INSTAGRAM might prove to be a better option!

Love you all THIS much. & You know it!

XOXO

9 comments:

  1. This post reminds me of two I wrote fairly recently, because I, too, have been feeling a little stuck.
    Maybe the quotes in these will help you, too.

    http://kellisnedegar.blogspot.com/2012/10/quote-friday-stop-waiting.html

    http://kellisnedegar.blogspot.com/2012/09/quote-friday-jim-elliot.html

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  2. I just want you to know that I've totally been there. And you WILL figure it out. You may try something and not like it and thats okay. Its a process and you're going to find exactly where you should be. Follow your heart and your head. You're smart and determined and are going to do AWESOME things!

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  3. Girl i know exactly what you are saying! I finally figured out today what kind of carreer i want and im excited to start working towards that! sometimes the only thing that works to get unstuck is to listen to God. everything happens for a reason right :)

    sammy

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  4. Hi I'm Lisa a new follower! I have been feeling the exact same way lately. I need a better direction for my interest and myself.

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  5. Lauren, you are stronger than this. We all are. "Peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; and then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high". D&C 121:7-8.

    I hope you find peace and joy in your journey. I'm sorry you are feeling this way right now. You should maybe go to that special place where all confusion melts away, and the where the world is calm for a moment or two (the Temple). You have a lot of support girl :)

    Amy*

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  6. i've just found your beautiful blog.

    I do hope you get un-stuck sometime soon. There will be a catalyst, there always is.

    xo em

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  8. I've been feeling this exact same way recently. It's kinda nice to know I'm not alone in feeling stuck, y'know? I hope that you start figuring things out soon.

    x

    nicolakirsty.blogspot.co.uk

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  9. Love your blog, sweet girl. Lethbridge is a confusing place, and sometimes hard to wrap your head around things here. Good luck with your new adventures!

    My blog is alotlikelove.weebly.com

    xoxo

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