Friday, July 29, 2011


EVER been so frustrated and confused with life that your ears do this?...

And your BRAIN threatens to EXPLODE?

I sure HAVE....but I hope that TODAY isn't one of those days for YOU!


Thursday, July 28, 2011

Jet Setting again = sucky blogger!!!

1 WHOLE week without blogging...uh whoops! Where did the time go?! OH RIGHT...

I'm in MICHIGAN with awesomeboy and his AWESOME fam!...I wish I could put some pictures up...and I WILL at some point, its just that I forgot my cord sooo Im gonna have to figure something else out to get them on here!! Anywhooo!!...

It all started with a wonderful plane ride from the BEAUTIFUL GAAAHHETTTTOO GreatFalls airport! Seriously folks have you ever been in there?...bring hand sanitzer and LOTS of it!! The plus side?...I got to sit all by myself on the airplane!..Not so plus side?..The airplane was as ghetto as the airport, and there were a few times I was pretty sure we were goin down!

THEN... I BARELY (not exaggerating) made my connecting flight...Where I had the privilege of sitting by a man who smelt like salt and vinegar chips (gross) , and there was a GIGANTIC  thunder and lightning storm so we had to reroute and take about 45 mins longer than planned...yay...

ButTHEN I made it safe and sound and so did my luggage and awesomeboy was there waiting for me and we had a great reunion! know like in the movies...where they run up to each other and the guy picks the girl up off the ground and twirls her around and then they kiss?...ok it was nothing like that...but it felt like it anyways! =)...we had been apart for ONE whole week people, cut us some slack!

Anywho...I will update more when I can get some pictures on! But this place is fantastic!...Even though its so HUMID my hair doesn't know what to do with itself, the thunderstorms are amazing, and the company definitely makes up for it!

Hope everyone has been having some good hot summery days!! I think we ALL deserve them!!


Thursday, July 21, 2011

The Best Day

8+ hours in the car with my momma....

Now I KNOW my mom would agree when I say that a few years ago this would have been a recipe for disaster! BUT let me tell you it was a GREAT time! Full of good conversation, singing to music, and laughing! ....After she had packed up all my stuff in my apartment and cleaned cleaned cleaned while I took my finals so we could get the heck outta there!...Best Mom award goes to HER..don't even try to argue!! 

So Momma I just wanted you to know...



Sunday, July 17, 2011

Its the little things!..


Oh what I would give to be that little girl on the swing! Not a care in the world!! Just SO happy and excited to feel the wind on her face and watching everything pass by her eyes, and feeling like flying.
I am SO guilty of just trying to get through the day, get everything done that needs to be done. But, then I remember how amazing it feels to just take a break, leave those dirty dishes in the sink just a little bit longer, walk away from that essay I have been staring at for who knows how long, and just go for a walk or call my momma or poppy, or have a simple sweet conversation with Cooper. It is the simple little moments in life, like the kiss on the cheek I just got :), or the kind text from a friend that just says "I hope you have a good day", or baking cookies,  or getting puked on while I hold the cutest baby in the world! I LOVE watching the part where the little boy spills the spaghetti and you wonder what his dad is going to do!...then he just smiles and gets right in there and gets dirty and plays with his son. Oh how much more wonderful and joyful our lives would be if we could just remember to step back and dance in the rain!! =)

I love you all SO SO much!!


Saturday, July 16, 2011


This post is mostly for someone who will never read it! But meh!....

YOUR words don't hurt me anymore!...they just make me laugh because obviously you know how big of an idiot you so sad when people have to try to bring others down just to try and make themselves feel better! ....Sorry son but you don't affect my life anymore!...and YOU ARE WELCOME for being the better person and not flat out embarrassing you to the world by replying to what you said!..It's a good thing you did a great job of that all on YOUR own.

I am SO grateful you BLEW it, and grateful that because YOU DID, I DODGED a HUGE bullet!

THANK YOU for BLOWING IT, because now I get to LIVE the BEST life possible and ACHIEVE ALL the things YOU held me back from!

and YES you turned out to be THE BEST thing I NEVER had!

And last but not least I KNOW it SUCKS to be YOU right now!...and one day...that is going to SMACK you right in the face!....and that will bring JUSTICE for all those who have wanted to SMACK you themselves! =)...What goes around comes back around! Thank goodness!

Ever been to a Farmers Market?...If not...YOU NEED TO!
I just love going to them SO SO much!! Even if you don't buy anything but one tasty treat, it is just loads of fun to walk around and look at everything!! ....Also... I got all kinds of adventurous and ate an olive! should all be VERY proud!

When life gives you drink some HONEY LEMONADE!...SCRUMPTIOUS!

And you also do some retail therapy!!...Homemade soaps, some jewelry, and honey sticks(thanks to me honey! ;) )


BAKING OF THE WEEK! pictures because they were basically all gone before I could even get to it!

I always buy bananas and only eat 1 or this put the rest to YUMMY use!!

1/2 cup butter melted
1 cup of bananas smushed (3)
1/2 cup sour cream
2 tsp vanil
1 egg
2 cups flour
1 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp cinamon
1/2 tsp ginger
1/4 nutmeg
1 cup sugar 
1/2 cup choco

BAKE at 350 for 10-12 mins....depending on the size of the muffins!

MIX together all wet ingredient into one bowl, in seperate larger bowl mix together all dry ingredients and make a well in the center.Slowing add wet ingredient to well and incorporate! THEN ADD ALL THE CHOCO CHIPS your little heart desires!

MAKE SURE to grease the muffin tins! ;) AND ENJOY!


Friday, July 15, 2011


What's better than the midnight showing of Harry Potter?...

A little break from studying, spent with awesomeboy, eating fatty comfort food, and watching the Justin Bieber movie!!!!

Changed my life...that is all!!



Thursday, July 14, 2011


SMILE EVEN WHEN YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE IT! don't feel like it!!...Thanks to my Poppy who helped me laugh my way through the frustration of it all!! Oh I just LOVE our chats!


Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A&A Wednesday? meh sure!


Have I told you about the girl in ballet who burps non stop? I can't remember....but anyhow I am pretty sure that she follows me around on purpose...Its sooo strange...

Another girl in my ballet class asking where I am from...I say Canada...she looks AMAZED...and says "whoooa! you are FROM there? LIVE there when you aren't here?...NO WAY!".....uh you did hear me say Canada right?..not Africa or anything like that?

Pouring crackers into my cereal bowl this morning... apparently the stress and lack of sleep is starting to affect daily life..

Having to remember to remind myself of things and still forgetting,... like remembering to put underwear on before I put my clothes on...Im seriously losing my brain here kids!! 

The rain and humidity doing strange strange things to my hair!...bleh...good thing I wear it in a china bun so often it doesn't matter too much!

Buying food from the grocery store with the expire date being july 17 2011...opening it at home and wondering what the horrible smell is....oh ya don't worry about was MOLDY as all get out!..EWWW

The face I made when I bit into my plum this morning after I'd brushed my teeth...if anyone saw me I can promise you they got a good laugh this are welcome!

Me + bowling = AWKWAAARD! .....I told everyone how much I suck (I really do) and asked for bumpers...we didn't get any and I got a strike on my first bowl...ehhh what the? Uh and this freaky place doesn't let you have names..just numbers..ruuuude!


I have drank 3 bottles of energry crystal light things... I feel amazing..I'm not sure if its good...but its necessary!..AMAZING!..

I only have TWO finals and one is open book online...uh cha ching!! 

I will be leaving the monstrousity I call "home" in 1 week!! can I get a wooo hooo!! 

Velcro bowling shoes...nuff said...  

Getting to see the fam in one week!!! I for real need some hugs and slobbery smooches from those 2 cutie pie boys!! 

Coca Cola in a glass bottle...makes me feel all fancy and stuff!! ....also this picture happened when all I wanted to do was get a picture of the bottle!...thanks awesomeboy...

This pic is all I wanted...

I get to go see WICKED with the whole fam tonight...OH WAAAAAIT...NOT...they are all going to the only play on my bucket list...WITHOUT me...thanks rock!

Banana Muffins!....which I am making tonight so stay tuned!! They will be blogged the same week they are made..for once!..


Monday, July 11, 2011

BAKING of the week?....from last week again!!


"Lemon has such perfect- light and sweet, fresh and clean."

1/2 Cup softened butter
2 TBSP grated zest
1 cup plus 3 TBSP flour, divided
1/4 cup powdered sugar
3 eggs
3 TBSP lemon juice
3/4 tsp baking powder
1 1/2 Cups Sugar

COMBINE butter, 1 tbsp lemon zest, 1 Cup flour, and powdered sugar in a food processor ( blenders fail big time!) (Or you can have you strong burly man do it by hand! ;) )
Process until mixture becomes a crumb texture.

PRESS crumbs into a greased 8X8 baking dish. Spread evenly to form a crust. Bake at 350 degrees for 15 mins.

MEANWHILE beat eggs, lemon juice, remaining flour, baking powder, and lemon zest and sugar. Pour over baked crust and bake for 25 more mins. Remove and let cool, then dust with powdered sugar and cut into squares.

These are SO yummy!! Awesomeboy even hid them in his room so his roommates wouldn't snarf them all down!!!...Someone missed the sharing lesson when he was 4!!! :)

And picks...they looked amazing...and I took pics...then I deleted them because in my brain I had already blogged this...yet that was dream!! woooops!! I guess you just have to make them to see what they look like!! =)

In other lemony goodness news ...on my lemonade vitamin water today I had a good laugh at the message it had on it! And just thought I'd share it because I think EVERYONE can relate to it!!

"C'mon, is that a purse...or a suitcase? let's see what you're squeezing in there. looky here, a gift card(with 89 cents left), three different hand creams (melon, cucumber, cucumber-melon), lip blam, lip stick, and lip gloss - oh what's this? ahhh the ol' giant wad of receipts (plan to return that shirt you're wearing?) well, your bags inspired us. we squeezed as much good stuff as we could into this bottle....feel free to squeeze a couple of bottles into your purse... or "man-bag" (we're not judging)."

Well happy Monday everyone!! hope this brought some sunshine into your day!!...blasted Mondays..


Sunday is a GREAT day!

"In all of living, have much fun and 
laughter. Life is to be enjoyed, not just 

 Gordon B. Hinckley

There is nothing better than a chill Sunday after a crazy week and weekend full of schoolness!
Today was perfect!!

Church was great!! Our Sunday school teacher was FULL of joy! She brought such a light into our classroom. Even when her lesson didn't go as planned she just kept on going with a little smile on her face! Such a great example and a wonderful lesson!!

We got cookies in relief society which is always a bonus to a FANTASTIC lesson!

Then its into comfy clothes and headed for a nap on the couch! Gloriousness I tell ya!!

A little chicken parmesan for dinner never hurt anyone!...along with HEAPING helping of cauliflower...mhmm!! I ate so much a had a food baby that could have rivalled any 5 month pregnant lady! No joke!

So a nice walk with awesomeboy to sit at the temple did just the trick! The temple is SO beautiful and all the flowers around it are amazing! ahh

Then an opportunity to read my patriarchal blessing....Some new things really stuck out to me this time and it was so amazing! Its great that as life goes on I start to notice new and different things that have been promised to me as great blessings in the future.

I also had a great opportunity this week to go to the temple. I was reminded of how precious good friendship is. Those that stick by you always, no matter what you have been through or even what you struggle with now. They love you regardless. I was also reminded of my Saviors love for me. That he never leaves me. He is always there waiting with an outstretched arm, just waiting for me to take hold and let him comfort and heal me.

I just tried REALLY hard to find the song I wanted to put on here....but alas it seems impossible and I am SO tired!! =) I hope everyones Sunday was just spectacular!!


Thursday, July 7, 2011


I have officially kicked the habit of only being able to fall asleep with the TV on. It has taken baby steps I will admit. And this might seem kind of silly to everyone reading this, BUT this is a huge accomplishment. For a while now I have been afraid of silence. Afraid of the emptiness that would come a long with it. Where my thoughts would go and if I would end up in tears or frustrated beyond belief from just thinking to much and to hard about things that can't be fixed. So I got into the habit of ALWAYS having a show on because it would somewhat hold my attention. Not only so I could go to sleep, but ALL the time! When I would get ready in the morning, fold laundry, cleaning, driving, eating, even walking to and from school I would be plugged into my music or anything to keep me from having my own thoughts. You want to know a secret, the thoughts and sadness follows you no matter what is there to semi numb what passes through your brain.

Last night I did something I hadn't done in a while... I just laid in my bed. No music, No tv show, nothing but silence. I'll admit I cringed a little bit and had to fight the urge to get rid of the silence. I have literally grown to be afraid of it. But I laid there and just let whatever thought that came into my head pass on through. And when I got a little bit overwhelmed I just laid there and had a conversation with my Heavenly Father.

Silence has never felt so good! I have really kept myself away from just being with  myself for so long that I forgot what it was like to just think and be alone with my thoughts.

I did the same thing tonight as I thought about someone who left this world today. A man who will truly be missed by all who ever knew him. A man who always had a smile for me when I was going through a pretty rough time. Who would always ask "how ya doin today?" and you knew he really wanted to know. Who always said "its sure nice to see you today." When maybe you felt invisible..or like you wished you were. I thought about my family and how much I love them. How grateful I am that I know I have the ability to be with them for all eternity. How grateful that those I love that aren't family have the same knowledge. Losing someone is never easy, but I can't imagine how to get through that loss without knowing you will see them someday, they will be right there waiting for YOU!. How grateful I am to know...

"This is not forever, this is not the end, this is not the final product.” 


Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Cookie of LAST week!...

so THIS is the cookie from last week...donno how it slipped my mind to put it on here! I coulda sworn I did!!

My momma got me an awesome Cookie Cook Book for my bday and these were the first ones experimented with!!

Turned out pretty tasty...but not that perty so no pics for this one! =)

"life couldn't get much sweeter than a root beer float cookie."

3/4 cup sugar
3/4 Cup brown sugar
1 Cup butter, softened
1/4 cup milk
2 eggs
2TBSP root beer extract
4 Cups flour
pinch of salt
1 tsp. baking soda
Cream glaze

CREAM together sugars and butter. Add milk, eggs, and root beer extract. Add dry ingredients and mix.

ROLL dough into 1 inch balls. Refrigerate dough for 1 hour until firm. Then place on lightly greased cookie sheet

BAKE 350 degrees for 8-10 mins. Cool and Frost with cream glaze.

CREAM GLAZE: 2-3 TBSP cream, 1 1/2 cups powdered sugar, 1/2 tsp vanilla!..(we added some root beer extract to the cream glaze also...made it a lot more root beer..y?)

Enjoy!! They really do taste like a root beer float!!


When Life Gives You Lemons....

YOU HAVE THE BEST BIRTHDAY WEEKEND EVA!!...Well thats what I did anyways!

It started out with some Waterfall goodness...the water was FREEZING and the rocks hurt my feet..but I loved every minute of it!!...sun and water!...glorious!

Then some more bridge time!!

Then I got to cross off my life long dream of going to a drive in movie!! ahh!! I can't even tell you how excited I was for this!! =)

They even really have the little silly cartoons before!!

Then I got present from awesomeboy cause he is all kinds of awesome!!

It was a watch and it is way cute and I love it!! (oh and don't mind that artwork behind me...awesomeboy is some what of an arteest! bigdeal!)

AND cupcakes at the lake!! velvet with a choco dipped strawberry!.. I tell ya this boy sure knows the way to my heart!!

And this one was way good also...raspberry? ..we don't know...but delish!!

This one did not survive the trip...but it still tasted faaantastic!!...coconut lime! mmm

Time with the girls at the lake!!...I had to promise to crop out everyone's "ponch"..too bad Natalie is too tall...and skinny!

And of course time with the boyyys!

Then we ate din din at Cafe Rio....YUM!!...we were all too hungry, tired, and roasty toasty to even think of pictures of that!!

I think Chris is a leeetle tired and burnt?
Oh well...Still got to enjoy the fantastic FIREWORKS!...How nice of the whole Country to help celebrate my bday with me!!...soo thoughtful! =)

Such a good bday for not being at home with the fam!! I missed them tons and tons!! But got to talk to them on the phone! Made my day =) especially when Cooper said Happy BirSday and even said goodbye before throwing the phone down!

All in all HUGE just to get through these next couple weeks...I can do this...I can do this!!!


Sunday, July 3, 2011

Sunday...we are friends!

"When you have a bad thought that makes you down on yourself, tell it to go to HELL, because thats exactly where it came from!"

-This saying comes from a Young Womens leader I had when I was younger and I have NEVER forgotten it!! 

So this week has just been a little bit...weird?..I donno how else to explain it!!
A lot of thinking has gone on and ok honestly I've been grouchy! Sometimes I just am not sure how to get my feelings out and sometimes I feel bad for feeling sad or hurt or angry.
Then I was trying to think of a way to help a friend out last night because she wasn't having such a good day either and this is what I thought...

It doesn't make you weak to admit to feeling pain, in fact it's a sign that you are so much stronger because you feel it!

And I really do believe that!! I haven't been expecting to feel the way I have off and on all week. Sometimes I think its the days that you don't expect to suck, that suck the most! Because you go to bed fine and then wake up in the morning expecting it to be another day and BAM you are taken down buy something like a freight train that smacks you right in the face!!...NOT FAIR!! And the way I see it is that when this happens we only really have two options...

1.You can give up and throw your hands in the air and admit defeat and failure, wallow in sorrow and self pity, say why is this happening to me?, allow it to make us bitter and angry and refuse to allow Heavenly Father to help you get through that tough moment or tough day

2. Do not give up, realize that Heavenly Father made you strong enough to face even the things that He wished you didn't have to. Then realize that you can find and feel joy, that you deserve to have happiness, get through the tough time, say why not me?, turn to your Father in Heaven, admit that you need His comfort and guidance. And have the faith that He will help you through, because he LOVES you sooo much more than you can even imagine.

 And when I really look back on my week...It was actually good!! I spent a lot of time with people I love and had a lot of fun. Awesomeboy took care of me when I needed it and I could not ask for more!! So this coming week...even though I am turning 22 and don't want to...I am bound and determined to kick the bad days in the teeth and say NO THANK YOU! I'm having a good day no matter what!! 

I love you all and hope you have had a good long weekend!! 


Saturday, July 2, 2011


Best Canada Day in the USA..Ever! =)
Wee took TONS of pictures...but for some reason blogger hates me and these are the only ones that will load!! Oh well they are all pretty cute though!!

Who could complain really when your non Canadian friends wear red just to represent! =) You spend the day with them out in the sun at an awesome Waterfall!! Then go bridge jumping!! And then eat perogies!! =)
Yup Canada Day was pretty grand!!
Hope everyones Canada Day was a blast back home!! ...Lucky me I get to also celebrate Independence Day on Monday!!...NO SCHOOL AND FIRE WORKS FOR MY BDAY!!...ahhh life is good!!