Wednesday, June 29, 2011

STRESSED is DESSERTS spelled backwards!

Some days I feel THIS...

and theeeeen boyfriend goes and buys me a Mint Choco Cupcake because they are my FAV!...and then it seems like the world might not actually end!...and he also doesn't feel the need to "kill" me anymore!...I'm just SO lucky! =)


Monday, June 27, 2011

Going HOME!

The hardest part of the weekend....getting in the car and driving
Now, months ago I never thought this would have been a problem. I had actually decided to never set foot in that town again...let a lone not want to leave it! Not that I don't love my family and I did miss them terribly while I was gone...just sooooo many horrible memories! But I have realized in the last couple of months that its just time to let those bad memories go and start making some really good ones! And thats exactly what the last couple of visits home have been! GREAT memories!!
How you could tell we DID NOT want to leave.... I conveniently HID misplaced my keys, Awesomeboy forgot his suit and I forgot my flat iron...ugh!!

How could anyone possibly want to leave when you get to spend a few short days seeing these faces every morning! (bright and early I might add!)

Mickey is the bestest new addition to the fam! ...Look at those chubby chubby cheeks!! All the cuddles, giggles and smiles definitely make the pulling hair, getting spit on and puked on..twice!, and changing dirty diapers, all worth while!!..I couldn't put him down!! Awesomeboy and I took him for a SUPER long walk and he was sooo good the whole time...just cooing and looking at EVERYTHING around him and laughing the whole time!...

Cooper is SUCH a big boy now and SOOOO much fun to be around!! He just goes goes goes all the time! And he says the FUNNIEST things! Like saying to my mom.."YOUR NUTS!" and calling my dad "Chunky Ray". Oh my goodness...I just can't believe how big he is getting! I love both of these boys soooo much!!

And Erinn...their AMAZING mama!!...She is strong, creative, playful, loving and so caring to these two boys! I love to just watch her be the mom she is! She is such a great example to me!! Even when Cooper is being a stinker she has so much patience with him. And you can tell she is exhausted at some points but she still plays and plays and goes out of her way to just make sure her boys are having a good day!!

I wish I could be there to spend the whole month with them!! I feel like I am missing out on so much!! But I am so grateful for them being home with the family for the next few weeks! I can't wait to go home at the end of the semester and spend some more time with them! =)

This weekend was just so great! Spending time with the whole family made all my cares go away!

In the words of my very wise and loving Mom..."People may come and go in our lives, that is inevitable but the people who are firmly in your corner and in your life for eternity are your family.  I cannot think of a greater thing then to have a built in cheerleading team who is completely on my side, cheering for the success me and my team.  That is what a family should be and should do."

What I have learned over the last while is that relationships change...sometimes people drift out of your life and sometimes new ones wander in! But the one constant I have had is my family! I love them all to pieces! Being home on what I thought would be a tough weekend only helped make things better and help heal and move on! Plus who could complain!! I got to celebrate my bday early...AND ride my bicycle which I have been missing terribly! And have the most delicious birthday cake EVER!!! Thanks to my moms baking skills and my poppys icing skills!

Hope everyone weekend was just as enjoyable as mine! 


Wednesday, June 22, 2011


So ok I promise I have been making cookies EVERY week...awesomeboys roommates ALWAYS make sure of it!...but they have been repeats lately! SOOOO in order to make up for it! I have decided to tell you all of this SUPER cute little cupcake place we went to the other day!! UBER delish!! and if you ever stop through this town you MUST go!!

I think their advice is quite fantastic also...don't you? a cupcake?...I can't think of a better way to find calmness in a stressful day than to go and eat a delicious cupcake! =)


Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy Day To My Poppy!!


I definitely got my love and appreciation for the outdoors from you!!...hiking, camping, fishing!...I have loved doing all of this with you since I was little!! So this song reminds me of you! :)

Oh how I just love you so much!! Not only are you the best Father I could possibly have, but you are also I feel, one of my very best friends!
You have always been the perfect amount of parent and friend! We have had sooo much fun together through out the years. From many many many daddy daughter dates to just playing games and having fun at home! Then there have always been the times where you did need to be a parent and a good one at that. You didn't ever put up with my crap which is exactly what I needed growing up. I know I was a tough teenager to deal with and I think you did the best job that I would let you do!! Ha...I know I was soo stubborn but you loved me anyways. Tough love right? You always said it how it was and that was that no questions asked!!
My favorite times have always been our heart to heart talks! You never fail to amaze me with your wise words and encouragement! With out you I know I would not have gotten through the hard times in my life. You are always there to talk to and to talk some sense into me! You have loved me and accepted me always without fail. Your support has been the biggest most important constant I have had in my life. Even when you didn't agree with some of my choices you didn't turn your back on me or say "I told you so". You just simply held me when I cried...and cried...and cried some more, talked some sense into me, made me laugh and helped me put the pieces back together again! You encouraged me to go for what I wanted in my have some adventures and to most importantly be me and nurture myself! What a huge difference that has made in my life over the past year!..I love you so so so much and am so glad for the relationship we have always had and soooo grateful for the relationship we have today!! You are so special to me! And I can't thank my Heavenly Father enough for letting me be your daughter!


I wish I could be there to give you a great big hug...but I will see you next weekend!!! =)


Love you Always!,


Friday, June 17, 2011


Ready for another dose of Awky and Awesy??...


That I just typed awky and awesy....its late and I'm tired...mmk?

Purchasing a picture of an owl while wearing a shirt with an owl on it....its cooler to be a crazy owl lady than to be a crazy cat lady...right??..RIGHT!?

some questions are awkward...and embarrassing.....nuff said!

trying to find my sunglasses....frantically looking through my bag for them...oh right...on my head...right where I left them!..I think Im getting old!!


Doing a little internet shopping!...Happy Birthday too ME!!!...or so I thought they would come around my bday...nope they came the same exact day I bought them!! Go figure!

The new sunglasses I bought online!! gaah I love them! They are made of bamboo! neat right?...I promise to post pics stat!!

Going to the Temple!! :)

Outings with awesomeboy...doesn't even really matter what we are doing!! It is ALWAYS fun and I am ALWAYS laughing!!

rubber CTR rings ;)

The fact I get to see my fam next weekend!! woo woo!! so exciting!!

Well it was a short one and not TOOOO exciting!! what do you expect thought? my life is not THAT interesting to have 2 of these in one week!!

It is the weekend though peeps!! I hope its good and that I have some pics to share soon!! Haven't had any in a while!!!!

ENJOY some glorious days off!!!


Wednesday, June 15, 2011



that is all!...


Monday, June 13, 2011

A&A Monday?..Sure Why not!

Best week ever...ya'll will end up with a double dose of Awkward and Awesome since I decided to skip it last week forgot about it last thursday! Shucks! I know you were all very dissappointed! Anywho here we go!


One of my professors reffering to sex as "doing the little nasty"...uuhhhhh?... why that even came up I don't remember...pretty much thats all I remember from that class..weeeeird!

Being in a room with someone who pretends to like you, when they have openly hated on you, Oh hello big elephant in the room, nice to have you here!

This guy with a Loooooong pony tail and the weirdest patchy body hair everywhere, at the hot made me gag(out loud) and people around me heard...ya I know I'm rude...wooops

Having a slight issue with germs and having people talk about how after being at the hot springs they are always itching...bleh bleh...get me out of heeeere!!! Mind over matter people.

Over hearing a girl tell a guy...." its ok, my brother actually tells me to put out!"...oh you didn't just say that...

The cookie of the week from last week....EPIC FAIL!!....who likes snickerdoodles anyways...


Water For Elephants!! ...If you haven't seen it, DO! It is fantastic!! I usually wonder half way thru a movie if its over yet cause I hate being in theatres but I didn't even wonder once! Oh so great!

Going to a movie with awesomeboy and it only costing us $3...for the movie theatre is a little sketch..who cares!

Fun nights with fun people!!

Cuddle time after a long day...oh and comfy clothes after a long day!

Getting good grades! ...for most of you it has happened your whole life...for me I never gave a crap till college...Im actually kind of good at this stuff...whoda thunk it!!

Well there you have it! Awkward and Awesome Monday....whats a Monday for anyways!!


Sunday, June 12, 2011

Oh Happy DAY!

Recently my amazing strong brother reminded me of a very important message called "Hope ya know, We had a hard time." This video message is amazing and so powerful and I think has been such a blessing in my families life over the past year.

Its no secret we have had a hard time. We have all grown so much and grown closer together than I think would have ever been possible without the hard trials we have been given. I love this message so much because our Heavenly Father always knows when we are having hard time, and I believe so strongly that when our hearts are breaking he aches with us. He is there and knows our sadness. I think that what probably hurts him the most is seeing us so sad and heartbroken when he knows we will be ok and he will do all he can to comfort us, yet he still has to watch us figure it out for ourselves. How grateful I am for the example my brother and sister have been to me. They are so strong and amazing. They were there for me and I have tried my best to be there for them. Our family is so strong because we are able to see each other having a hard time and we are able to at times forget ourselves and help each other. I am also SO grateful to my amazing friend AMY who has at times forgotten her hard time (and also forgotten about having to get up for work in just a few short hours) to comfort me in mine. I feel so blessed to have such amazing people in my life. How blessed I am to have had a hard time in order to have a better one. I know my Father in Heaven loves me and my loved ones enough to give us hard times, to make us better people, and stronger in all things.

Moses 5: 5-6
Heavenly Father gave Adam and Eve the commandment to sacrifice the firstlings of their flocks and when an angel comes to Adam he asks ...why dost thou offer sacrifices unto the Lord? And Adam said unto him: I know not, save the Lord commanded me.

Sometimes we don't know why we are asked to do things or go through hard times. We just have to have faith and trust the Heavenly Father knows why and that its for the best.

I love you all SO SO much!! I hope your weekend was amazing and your Sunday even better!! Thank you for being you and being a part of my life!


Wednesday, June 8, 2011


I would just like to say that I love blogging...I love it because I can get my emotions out...but I also love it because I like to think that my posts are uplifting and have good messages..bring a good feeling to those who read it and maybe a nice little chuckle here and there when someone isn't having the best day!.... I DO NOT use this blog to embarrass or say hurtful things about ANYONE! That is just not who I am or what I would ever dream of doing!...Seems a little bit childish to use it for me anyways!
Recently there was a hateful blog posted about me...used my name and everything. None of it was true but for some reason in this persons alternate universe this is how they felt. I don't appreciate this and neither did anyone I know who read it! ...Some times you are just your own worst enemy I guess! Poor guy!...I could have and still could now blog a not so nice post about him. But I would never do it! Sometimes I just can't understand people and my Mom helped me to realize that you can't reason with insanity! So that is what my blog is about today!


So I am just not going to even try anymore! I have become so much better at surrounding myself with good genuine amazing people! And as my mom would say "getting rid of the poisonous people" in my life! I LOVE YOU ALL who have and continue to support me in everything! Thank you for knowing and loving the REAL me!! I just adore you all to pieces!!


Sunday, June 5, 2011

Happy Sunny Sunday!

I love Sundays so much! Honestly I have just been waiting for Sunday to finally come around this week! I needed it really bad. Not that I had a bad week at all or anything of the sort. I just simply needed it! I had a pretty nasty headache to start out the day and it lasted through all of Church. But I knew I couldn't go home! I had been waiting for Sunday to come and I knew I needed to be at Church and that I was going to get something out of being there today. In relief society we talked about the importance of the Temple and my last Book of Mormon class was also partially to do with the Temple. I will be honest that I know this subject keeps coming up in my life for my benefit... and I have been struggling with it. I love the temple so much and I am so grateful to have the blessing of being endowed and able to attend but over the past months it has been hard to get myself to go. Tisk Tisk on me because it is such a major blessing to have...especially when things are hard. So... I am hoping after some prayer and thought this week that I will be able to go very soon!... because I want to and I need to and I know it will be nothing short of an amazing experience! No matter how I feel before going I know I will feel peaceful and comforted the minute I walk through those doors. I am so grateful to know that my family will be able to be together forever through the blessings of the Temple and I am grateful to have the opportunities to attend temple sessions with them!!

I also just wanted to share this video I was watching this morning on HERE

And it just helped me to realize that bad things do happen but we can't let those bad things ruin us. Heavenly Father could fix the bad things that happen to us but sometimes he won't and we have to trust that it is because he loves us and knows what is best at the time. I love my Heavenly Father so much for giving me my trials and knowing whats best and knowing that I can handle them. I have learned to trust in his plan for me and have seen the miracles and blessings that have been brought into my life because of everything that has been hard. I also am so proud of my family for being so strong in the face of their trials also. I am so grateful for them and glad to have them in my life! Happy Sunday everyone!! I hope it is beautiful out wherever you are so you can enjoy some time outside!! 

P.S.- go to that website and watch all the I AM MORMON videos! They are so fun and uplifting!


Friday, June 3, 2011


Alright...for reals I don't know what was up with today but it was some kind of seriously OUT OF CONTROL!! let me prove it to you!


I was walking home from ballet and I was walking down a little hill and noticed my pants were a little bit tucked into my shoe...this is obviously not ok!..So I bend over to fix it...little do I know there is a guy walking RIGHT behind me!..just picture this catastrophy for a uno momento! it?..alright so he bumps right into me sending me flying face first into the pavement...YET he catches me right before I go splat!..picks me up and then I awkwardly apologize then he apologizes then we continue to walk in silence in the same direction the rest of the way...AWKWARD!!

THEN I am sitting in the library just minding my own business trying to get my homework done and study. I can hear this group of guys talking about the weekend and just whatever and this one guy tells this other guy he needs to find a date for the weekend, he says alright Ill ask this girl. ALL THE SUDDEN he pops his face right beside mine and says HI!...ugh ahh heartattack bleh! those were my thoughts! He then says do you want to go out with me this weekend?! thought is do i want to or will i? which the answer is NO to both...I look around and EVERYONE is staring!...GULP!...I politely say that I'm busy and yada yada and he tells me his name and says I can facebook creep him and gives me his number "just incase".......This makes me extra grateful for awesomeboy...

This boy sat beside me in Book of Mormon class and asked me if my earrings are made of metal...I said I don't really know..maybe? Then he asked if he could touch them and before I could answer he was!!...VIOLATION!

My legs...they haven't been this hairy in a while....gross I know...

My not so good at controling my anger when we show up at this play 1 minute before it starts and they won't let us in and then make us BUY standby tickets for tomorrow night!...I would almost rather just take a big fat 0% on my assignment!!!....we really did try to be on time...everything was just getting in our way!!!

ok so some things are awesome.....


My roommate got her mission call!!! Pittsburg Pennsylvania! ...EXCITING!!

I totally killed at ballet today!! woo woo!!

Awesomeboy washed my car for me the other day!...he didn't even know I hate doing that SO much!!

I bought mint choco chip gum and now my car smells like it mmmmmm!!

Sleeping in tomorrow because of no class!!! bombtastic I tell ya!

3 words!

AND THESE...ARE THE BEST COOKIES YOU WILL EVER TASTE!...just a warning..don't taste the dough or you will end up without any cookies at all...yah its THAT good!...I basically ate 5 cookies in just dough!...but it doesn't really count because they aren't cookies yet...riiiiiight?! plus they are kind of healthy because they have apples in them?..mhmm! Thats my story and I'm stickin to it!!

APPLE OATMEAL COOKIES! ( awesomeboy says if apple crisp and oatmeal cookies had a baby...)



  • 1 cup butter, softened
  • 1 cup packed brown sugar
  • 1/2 cup sugar
  • 2 eggs
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 1-1/2 cups all-purpose flour
  • 2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 3 cups old-fashioned oats
  • 1/2 cup chopped dried apples


  • In a large bowl, cream butter and sugars until light and fluffy. Beat in eggs and vanilla. Combine the flour, cinnamon, baking soda and salt; gradually add to creamed mixture and mix well. Stir in oats and apples.
  • Drop by rounded tablespoonfuls 2 in. apart onto ungreased baking sheets. Bake at 350° for 10-12 minutes or until golden brown. Let stand for 1 minute before removing to wire racks. Yield: 4 dozen.

ENJOY!! I hope you all had a good A&A day!! 


Wednesday, June 1, 2011


Maybe its just the fact that its been waaaay sunny and nice out today OR that I don't have school on friday BUT.....Today I am feeling very grateful for where I am at in life and for the blessings I am receiving day to day! I feel very grateful for everything that got me here!..Every tear, every heartache, and every mistake! Every experience I have had and everyone I have had in my life has gotten me to where I am and who I am today. I wouldn't change a thing! All the lessons I have learned have been so worth it!  Like the song I posted the other day says, " The light at the end is worth the pain.."

Happy hump day ya'll! Its almost the weekend!! woo!!