Monday, May 18, 2015

15-25 Weeks

This second trimester has flown by so quickly! Now we are headed into the third trimester pretty soon and I can hardly believe it! We have a pretty busy summer coming up ahead of us and I think these next 14 weeks are going to go by in the blink of an eye. I've started making all the to do lists to get done before baby arrives! It's kind of crazy! There is SO much to do! But for now lets focus on what the second trimester brought...

Weight Gain: 13 pounds total. I keep thinking I'll have gained more when I go to my appointments but the numbers still aren't going up very much. At first I was worried but my Doctor keeps reminding me that the baby is growing and is very healthy and it is A-Okay because everyone gains different amounts of weight.

Cravings: I still basically want cereal and pb&j's all the time haha. But recently I want peaches. The smell and taste are just so good right now!! I guess I have always loved fruit so it's not a weird craving or anything. But dang they are a million times better than I ever remember! Other than that I just want fruit all day every day.

Food Aversions: I still seriously hate tomatoes and lettuce….which is just really sad. And none of the veggies I typically love taste good to me. Ugh. But I still keep trying to eat them and get some goodness in my belly and to baby. I feel like I am already fighting with this kid to eat healthy! At least it's just veggies I struggle with and not EVERYTHING healthy.  I would starve.
Also, no pizza for this mama. Which is okay because I never really loved pizza anyways but man it makes me sick!

Symptoms: Hello heartburn! I feel like the heartburn situation is slowly getting worse. Maybe that means baby H is growing some hair in there? Hopefully! Other than that just aches and pains. My left hip is really giving me troubles and making it hard to sleep…or harder to sleep. If you are pregnant and haven't had a prenatal massage…GO NOW! That is the most relaxed I have felt in a long time and I have never slept better. I could get one every dang day!

Movement: This baby is a wild one! I know I have said that before but for some reason it still amazes me every time is kicks or wiggles around at all! In the past couple of weeks I have also been able to see my belly move when he moves. It's hilarious and also kind of weird!! But it is so much fun to be able to have other people feel and see a glimpse of what is going on in there! The most fun part of it is having Kev put is hand on my stomach and with every movement say "Whoa! That was a big one!" or "Good job buddy!" When he first saw my tummy move his face was so priceless!

What a miracle it is to watch and feel baby H grow! I love this little dude oh so much already and can not wait for the rest of the weeks to fly by! But for now I am soaking up every moment I have left just the two of us! It is already so much fun to be his Mom!


Thursday, May 14, 2015

Live Free

Well, in true Lo fashion, I took about zero pictures on my two week trip home to Canada. Okay I took a ton of pictures of my new niece and of my nephew but those are all for me! All the moments spent at home after 365 days were waaaay more memory worthy than picture worthy anyways. I spent a lot of time in my pi's with no make up on just loving up on those sweet little babes! I got to do what I would normally do if I was still living there. Late night chats with my sis, so many cuddles from the cutest kiddos, long walks with my mom, devouring delicious food, deep convos with my daddio and catching up with old friends. It was perfection.

Now about this shirt. First of all its awesome. It's comfortable, it's cute, and it adds a nice pop of colour to my wardrobe! Plus it fits this little growing bump! Score! But I also love the message it has. While I was home in Canada I also had a lot of time to reflect on life and to also think forward to the future. I think my entire life I was trying to break free and really LIVE FREE. Free from pressure to be perfect, free from the typical, free from fear. I have this free bird kind of spirit which you have all been able to see over the years! I like to go and do and travel and just be free! I so badly want to raise this little boy of ours to know that he can do the same! That he can be whatever he wants to be. He can be whomever he is. I want to teach him to live free of fear and to just go for it! Go for the life he wants! After all…living the LIVE FREE motto myself brought me here to Utah, brought me to his daddy and ultimately brought me him!

So LIVE FREE! Go live your dreams! Don't be afraid of not being perfect or of failing. Live Free of all those worries! And if you need a little push in the right direction…buy this shirt as a little reminder!


Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Motherhood in the Making

Some days I am completely caught off guard with fact that we will be welcoming our sweet boy in to our arms in just four short months. The time seems to be flying by and I can feel him growing more and more each day. Sometimes I feel like he so much already has a personality all his own and when I meet him face to face for the very first time I will already know him. I would be lying if I wasn't a bit terrified that in just a few short months this pregnancy will be over and I will officially be his mother and his life source but in a different way. It could really sloooooow down because I think I will miss being pregnant with my little guy. And some days I am just not fully prepared for what being a Mom fully entails. I worry I won't be enough and that my patience just won't be where it needs to be.

Other days I cannot wait for these four months to be over. For him to be in my arms and to be able to kiss his sweet soft face. Being pregnant is hard in a lot of ways. Hard on your body and definitely hard on your emotions. Once he is here I won't worry if he is doing okay in there or if these braxton hicks are anything more than that. Or worry if I am gaining enough weight or if I am doing everything just right for him to have a healthy home inside of me. Mostly though I just can't wait to be holding him and  have him be such a huge part of our little family.

I imagine that once he is here life will still be a lot like this.

Some days I will be wishing the days away until he sleeps through the night or will eat on his own. Some days I am positive I will even look around at an unkept house, a crying baby and a wardrobe full of clothes that just don't fit quite right anymore and think…. "What was I thinking?!?" 

But then I will hold that sweet crying boy in my arms and he will smile at me and I will realize that that is what it is all about. That the dishes don't so much matter, that my jiggly tummy is a reminder that once he was right there inside of me and that maybe I will hold that crying baby just a little bit longer because one day he won't want me to.

And this will be the forever roller coaster of Motherhood.

Becoming a mom has always been my most sought after goal in this life. The greatest gift my Heavenly Father has ever given me is our sweet baby H. The greatest of all the gifts my amazing selfless and wonderful husband will ever give me is the gift of becoming a Mother. 

I want to remember on the hard days that I am so blessed. I am the luckiest. I get to be a Mom. There is no greater gift in this life.

Happy Mother's Day this coming weekend to all you women out there. 

Thursday, April 16, 2015

20 Week Bumpdate!

Top c /o: Pink Blush Maternity (similar)// Jeans c /o: Pink Blush Maternity// Shoes c /o: Aeropostale

Finding out Gender: When we found out baby was a boy it was the funniest moment ever! Don't get me wrong it was SUCH a happy moment but it was funny. Funny because EVERYONE thought this baby was a girl. Minus 2 people. So looking over at Kev when the ultrasound tech told us BOY his face looked kind of confused and then SO SO happy! Then I started crying because oh a boy! A momma's boy! My families reactions were all…"Really?" haha. I would be lying if I said it didn't take some time to get used to the thought. But now I just love this little boy more than anything! A BOY!

Baby's growth: Baby H is now 12.5 ounces…almost ONE pound! During our recent ultrasound we got to see all his important parts and know that he is developing perfectly and growing right on track. I can't explain the relief of that ultra sound! He is getting so big and now I feel him moving all day long! That has been the funnest experience! But he is definitely a wild one and I am nervous about when he gets even bigger. I'm going to be in trouble! 

Momma's Growth: I have FINALLY put on a few pounds! 6 to be exact! Never would I have thought that putting on weight would be a happy moment haha. Also, this belly is growing away but thankfully still no stretch marks to be found!  I just keep buttering myself up with Tummy Butter and keeping my fingers crossed! Watching my body change is surprisingly such a happy thing!

Symptoms: I am finally no longer 24/7 nauseous and sick. It is such a joyous moment to enjoy some foods again! There are still moments where nothing sounds good or tastes good. For the most part though food has become not a hated thing! For some reason though I still really hate veggies…which is really sad to me! Another happy thing is that I can brush my teeth again without taking breaks to breathe so I don't vomit. Yick! 
The last two weeks I have been having braxton hicks. I had no idea they could happen this early and sheesh they are not comfortable. My whole stomach gets SO tight for about 30 seconds- 1 minute and it happens a couple times in an hour and then goes away until the next day. My doctor reassured me that because I am "so lean and tiny" it's not a surprise that I am already feeling these. Also…bonus to be called lean and tiny when your stomach is expanding away! haha! 

Sleeping: I am still SO congested always. Especially when I sleep. So breathe right nose strips are still saving my life! I also sleep every night all wrapped up in my maternity pillow. That thing is AMAZING! So amazing! My hips and back have been less sore since I started using one and that has been so helpful! 

Second Trimester Thoughts: It is SO crazy how different my second trimester has been from the first. First trimester I was almost positive I never wanted to do this again haha. Second has made me WAY more excited to experience pregnancy and everything has been a lot more enjoyable! 

I cannot wait to keep growing and to see what the next 20 weeks will bring! By the end it will bring us our sweet little baby H!! ah!


Monday, April 13, 2015

Spring Time Floral

Dress c /o: Pink Blush Maternity// Cardigan c /o: Pink Blush Maternity

Well it's official! We are half way through this pregnancy and just that much closer to meeting this sweet little boy of ours. I absolutely love how much I have been feeling him move lately. It always puts a smile on my face to know he is in there just partying away! What I did not enjoy however was the other day when I hadn't felt him move at all. I was so distraught. I knew there was probably nothing to worry about but as a mother I already felt the uneasiness that maybe something was wrong with my sweet boy. It is SO crazy just how attached and in love you can feel with this little being growing inside of you. I would do anything for him. 

So in true mama bear fashion we were lucky enough to check on him that night with the help of our friends cousin who happens to be a midwife. She reassured me his heart beat was perfect and that the reason I wasn't feeling him is because he was spine to spine with me and so it was too hard to feel his little movements. But his heartbeat was strong and so I felt so much better.

She told me that when I need to feel baby move that I need to drink cold apple or orange juice and lay on my side on the couch with no distractions and count his movements. There should be around 10 in the hour. So for all you expecting mamas out there if you feel concerned try this trick! Or if you just want to feel your baby move a bit more do it! 

I went home, drank some juice, laid down on the couch with Kev and a bit later I felt baby H move back to his normal spot and then he proceeded to kick kick kick away well into the night. 

I love this little boy of ours oh so much. I can't wait for our Doctor appointment this week where we will get to see him again and I guarantee I will probably cry like always. Being pregnant truly is such a miracle and I am trying to not take it for granted and really take every experience in. Now I definitely don't ever take feeling him move for granted at all. I have an even bigger smile on my face these days when he is kicking around in there.

I am also REALLY loving dressing this bump! A LOT more than I expected! It is fun to see this baby bump grow and so much fun to see what I can wear that really flatters this changing body of mine! This dress is my FAVOURITE thing to wear right now! So comfy, so cute, so perfect for Spring time! 

And heck…maxis are in whether you are pregnant or not! WIN!


Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Comfy Cozy Spring Time

Tee c /o: Joah Brown// Sweater c /o: Aeropostale// Leggings c /o: Agnes and Dora// Gold stone necklace c /o: Fifth and Mae 

Well it's officially rainy spring time here. It's been gloomy and misty out but hey I don't so much mind the rain. Other than that we have a busy few weeks ahead of us! We are moving this weekend…which I seriously hate moving. K more like I HATE packing. Also, things just aren't the same with a sore body and extra weight on your belly. By the end of a full day packing yesterday my back felt like it had been run over by a bus. I'm probably being dramatic but hey it didn't feel great! 

Once we move, we are headed to San Francisco to visit family and for Kev to work. I can't wait for a little break from reality! I live for breaks from reality! Especially if there are palm trees and a cute nephew involved! 

So that's about all there is to it right now. Baby brain can really result in writers block sometimes…So happy hump day! Almost the weekend. We can do it!


Wednesday, April 1, 2015

To Maternity Pants or To Not Maternity Pants…That is the question.

Tee c /o: Fevrie// Jeans c /o: Pink Blush// Watch c /o: Daniel Wellington

A sad thing happened on the weekend. I was getting ready to go to a BBQ and I thought well I could probably put my regular jeans on. Things went well until I went to button them up. They buttoned up BUT they were pretty dang uncomfortable. Kev heard some squeals and asked if I was ok. I replied…." I'm getting faaaaaat" He laughed and said…." No, the baby is getting fat! It's great!" Hahaha. Yes Yes it IS great and I wore the pants anyways…unbuttoning them part way thru…ha. I'm not surprised it has happened so soon. This baby of ours sits SO SO low so my stomach sticks out the most right where my pants button. Little stinker. Luckily though I already had these awesome maternity jeans from Pink Blush Maternity and so the answer my friends is to maternity pants. They are so extremely comfortable and I love wearing them! And like my friend so nicely said…"Lauren, you can't be a size 0 forever." 

Sigh…. I will give it up but only for this baby who is starting to move like crazy! eek! 

Now moving on to the not maternity article of clothing. This shirt! I saw it on XoMrsMeasom and like a pregnancy craving knew I had to have it! Yes, I did just compare clothes to food. Craving either is basically the same thing for me! But hey can you blame me? This top is perfect for Spring! Its lace and comfy and cute! A must have! So gooooo get it!

Oh, and a happy hump day to ya!